We Found (some of) The Mold

Well, we found (some of) the mold. A remediation company came out yesterday to check out the home we'd been staying in. I spoke to them and gave them an extreme cliff notes version of what we had been through and how, because my symptoms had returned and what we had since learned about the house, we suspected mold.

They went under the home and, in their words, found "a lot."

(humidity level of 71% under the house WAY too high)

Why do I say "some" of the mold?

Well, they didn't even check the attic. This summer I started smelling a musty smell coming down from the attic. Musty = mold so there is no doubt in my mind that there is mold also in the attic.

This is hard. It is difficult to go through this AGAIN. I am frustrated. 

To go through the extreme circumstances (and financial expense) that we did to save my life last year, then to move into another home with mold makes me angry. We did not know that there had been water issues under this house or we never would have moved here. But Steve and I have also had to learn to think a way about homes that most people don't and, at this point, a lot more has to change.

We are moving into the RV at the campground in a couple of days. Through our friends, God has blessed us tremendously. We've been able to replace clothes and bedding. I had been washing things outside (to keep them from getting contaminated) and hanging them to dry. We have found that the more time I spend outside, the more I can walk so I am spending 4, 6, sometimes 8 hours a day outside. The longer I'm inside, the more I lose ability to walk and get really weak and tired.

I am going to have to be very careful about what homes (buildings, churches) I go into from here on out. Even though this home is going to be remediated for our relative (a fact we are very grateful for for his health), I won't be able to come back for years, if ever. I have a tremendous amount of healing to do. Not only that, but we have to take into consideration the home we are going into for any holiday get togethers. Does it have water issues underneath? How healthy are the people who live there (homes cause a lot of health issues for people), if it isn't a moldy home, have the people lived in moldy homes and moved their items to the house? At 4 years into this with severe neurological attacks for me, we have to be very careful about any home that we enter for quite a while.

Steve works in moldy homes for a living so he will have to keep separate clothes and shower and change before coming in the RV, and someday, hopefully, home that we live in.

My doctor explained that, once you are "mold toxic" a lot has to change.
If you are a normal healthy person, you might be able to handle some mold (although I would argue that the longer you live in a moldy home, the more that will change).

If you have a mold allergy, you can handle a little less.

If you are mold toxic, as in, you have gotten very sick from mold, that threshold is very low.

Next month, I have an appointment with my doctor. At that point, he will lay out everything he found on my labs and a 7-9 month treatment plan starting with detox. (For those who have been keeping up, my son Reese will have this appointment in January).

Please pray for me. I don't look forward to detoxing again... at Christmas. Last Christmas I was in Arizona doing the same thing. I don't know how long I will have to work with this doctor on detox and rebuilding. He said he's found with adults that it's often 2-3 years or more, depending on how long they've been sick. I am hoping on the lower end since Envita cleaned my blood last year- twice- but I moved right back into a moldy home and I've lived in several for the past 20 years. In fact, I've mostly lived in moldy homes and I can trace my worst health issues to where I was living at the time. He said that kids often heal faster so I'm hoping that Reese and my other children will. We would appreciate your prayers in this regard.

Now, all of that said, I want to share the amazing things that God has done. We have been fairly silent this month on social media, I have been off completely, because we just wanted to pray. We knew whatever steps we had to take would be extreme and we really didn't want to make the wrong decision. On top of this, we knew there would be a large financial cost with this because we'd have to replace everything again and find a safe place to live.

I am losing my journals, again, so I want to record what God has done as much for myself as anyone else.

* A friend sent $500 just toward buying Christmas presents for our children. I had not shared this publicly, but I was very concerned about how we were going to buy our kids Christmas presents.

*On November 2nd I recorded that God sent $850 through friends. 

*On November 3rd I recorded that God sent $200 more through friends.

*On November 7th, God sent $1,000 more through a relative.

*We started replacing bedding and other items that we couldn't take because of cross contamination. (underwear, towels, etc)

*Last Friday we were getting down to about $400 and still needed to buy clothes for our family. We didn't tell anyone this.

*A friend messaged me and wanted to send money for clothes. She sent $1000.
We were able to go that night and buy $850 worth of clothes at Kohls for the family.

*We found a good price for a winter coat for Reese at Kohls but we were trying to wait for everyone else. Then, a friend said she had a gift card for Old Navy that we could have. There was $30 on it. We decided to go ahead and look at prices of coats at Old Navy for everyone else. They had 50% off of coats when we went so we went ahead and got coats. It came to $179. After the gift card it was $149. We were grateful. Then, that friend messaged and wanted to know if we were still in town. She met us and gave us $200 more. Coats were covered.

*November 15th- God brought in $500 more. $100 from a family that we went to church with when I was a kid and $400 from another friend.

When I look back at the amazing mercy of God, how can I not be grateful? He has gone before us so many times. He has provided in ways for us that we can't explain. A friend has commented that we have an amazing group of friends and family for support through this. We do. God has given us favor through this and we don't deserve it. There are many other people that I have met (online mold community) that have had to walk through this alone.

Many people grow up believing that they are their own providers. If they need something, they just need to work for it. Many others believe the government is their provider.

When I was growing up, we didn't have much financially. My dad worked hard. Very hard. But we didn't have a lot. I grew up seeing my parents say, 

"If God wants this, He will have to provide."

That is how Steve and I have operated for most of our marriage but, acutely, over the past 4 years.

God put us in a place that our only hope was him.

Mold Illness isn't recognized by the CDC. You won't find a doctor or insurance that covers it. There's no government plan for when you lose everything that you own.
There definitely isn't for when you have to walk away from a home completely (like we did when we left the home that originally made me sick).

When your credit is ruined from this, no one wants to rent to you and you certainly aren't borrowing for medical treatment.

If you can even find a safe home to consider buying somehow after your credit has been destroyed (and at this point, Steve and I think it probably has to be built), we would have to do 2 different types of mold tests on it. Not many home owners are going to agree to that because, once mold is found, they have to disclose it to anyone they're selling to.

But look at what God has done for us. He has built up our faith, He has provided for us. He has been faithful.

So, despite the range of emotions that I deal with on a daily basis, I have to come back and say, 

Psalm 9:1- I will give thanks to the Lord with my whole heart; I will recount all of your wonderful deeds. I will be glad and exult in You; I will sing praise to Your name, O Most High.

Psalm 16:5-8

The Lord is my chosen portion and my cup; You hold my lot.
The lines have fallen for me in pleasant places;
indeed, I have a beautiful inheritance.
I bless the Lord who gives me counsel;
in the night also my heart instructs me.
I have set the Lord always before me;
because He is at my right hand, I shall not be shaken.

In Christ,


Thank you to everyone for your prayers. If God lays it on your heart to give towards our move and replacing all of our
 belongings, our Go Fund Me is here:
Steve's Venmo is @Steve-Bullington-80
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