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Week 14- Faithfulness

At last he stood up, lifted his traveling case from the rack over our heads, and set it on the floor. 

"Will you carry it off the train, Corrie?" he said.

I stood up and tugged at it. It was crammed with the watches and spare parts he had purchased this morning.

"It's too heavy," I said.

"Yes," he said, "and it would be a pretty poor father who would ask his little girl to carry such a load. It's the same way, Corrie, with knowledge. Some knowledge is too heavy for children. When you are older and stronger, you can bear it. For now, you must trust me to carry it for you."

And I was satisfied. More than satisfied, wonderfully at peace. There were answers to this and all my hard questions. 


For now I was content to leave them in my father's keeping.


The Hiding Place

Corrie Ten Boom



In God's Providence I started reading The Hiding Place by Corrie Ten Boom this week with my daughter. It has probably been close to 20 years since I've read this book but I've had a conviction lately to pick up the book again.

Anyone who is a student of history can understand why this book would so appropriate to read now. But beyond that, God has used the first two chapters of this book to impress precepts upon my heart that I needed to be reminded of. When I was growing up, there were three women that my mom had me read. 

Corrie Ten Boom

Joni Eareckson Tada

and Elisabeth Elliot

There is no way she could have known what I would go through, but the faithfulness of these women has encouraged me, inspired me and reminded me of the true call in my life. 

Christ crucified and the fellowship of His sufferings. And yet, freedom. 


We have been on the road for 14 weeks. We could not have imagined the trials that we were called to in this life. We could not have imagined leaving Tennessee permanently. That we couldn't have even said goodbye to my daughter and my parents, not to mention siblings. We could not have imagined that we would leave with nothing more than one vehicle I wasn't reacting to, $800 and the clothes on our back (that would have to be thrown away as soon as we left Tennessee.)


We couldn't have imagined that we would have to walk in faith that entire time and wait as God provided, week after week. Food, clothing. Hotels.

In case you haven't calculated the cost, it isn't a cheap way to live. And then God provided a job that funded exactly what we needed to do this. A job we wouldn't have even know to look for. And then it didn't start until Steve could be away from me for longer periods of time with little risk. And God kept providing.


And all of this is happening in a time when there is what appears to be a totalitarian takeover. 

Oh Lord, what are you doing?!


Why 5 years before we found this path? Why couldn't we have started all of this traveling 3 years ago? Why did I have to be knocking on death's doorstep (a couple of times over) before we found it?


I don't know. But I know He is faithful. And I know that is what He is calling me to. See, I still have no idea what state we'll live in. I don't know if we'll look for a conventional home after this. We know I likely will have to live outside of any big towns. We'd love to have property but who knows where that money will come from.


Faithfulness...

I'm not there yet. I'm called to be faithful and trust. Where I am right now. And so I cry out to God. Then I lay it at His feet. Then I repent when I pick it up again. And I lay it back down.


So that someday Jesus can say to me,

"Well done good and faithful servant." Matt 25:21


In short, I'm learning to rest. Something I've never been very good at. I want to do. Fix. But I can't. It's too big and it's out of my hands.



 "Corrie," he began gently, "When you and I go to Amsterdam, when do I give you your ticket?"


I sniffed a few times considering this.


"Why, just before we get on the train."


"Exactly. And our wise Father in heaven knows when we're going to need things too. Don't run out ahead of Him, Corrie. When the time comes that some of us will have to die, you will look into your heart and find the strength you need. Just in time."





In Christ,

Megan







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