Honestly? I'm a Bit Numb and Walking in Faith to the Next Step

Please don't misunderstand. I'm grateful. I am walking. I am improving daily. I continue to see God's provision in amazing ways. We have friends who are STILL walking this journey with us. I have met others who are on this journey. Often they have no one or just a few friends who still even speak to them a few years in.

We can't say that. One of my best friends as a child's mother has called me to encourage me. A woman I worked with at Sonic as a teenager has written me letters, encouraged Steve, prayed over us and poured the Word of God into us. One gentlemen that our family has been friends with for years regularly texts Steve to pray over him, encourage him, and check on him. Some of the amazing group of friends that Steve and I have in high school have been there to help us move travel trailers, housed us, replace clothes and more. You all know who you are and we love you more than words can say.

But our hearts hurt. We are beginning to realize just how long this road is. Our oldest stayed back in Tennessee. It was what was best for her but we miss her terribly. I left my Winston back in Tennessee because he couldn't be with us on this part of our journey. It looks very possible that we need to do hotels for a year, maybe more. 

It will be a long time before we can even have a visit from family in Tennessee. Right now I still come in contact with some people who put me on the ground. Today Steve had to carry me out of the pool area when a couple who came in made me pass out and start convulsing.

And so it's hard. There's been so much loss.
Loss of property. Loss of belongings. 

Yes, there's been a lot of gain. Usually when people get as bad as me there isn't a second chance. Or third. Or whatever number we're on now. And God has provided in ways I never could have imagined.

Right now I'm just working on processing it all 

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