Jesus, What Would You Have Me To Do- Right Now?


As I have shared before, I am currently reading the book, Fear, Worry and the God of Rest by Ed Welch. This is my second time reading it. I will be going for a third.

In my reading last night, Mr. Welch mentions a man named Steve who was plagued by Obsessive Compulsive Disorder. There were a lot of things that helped him but the most helpful was one question:

"What does God call me to right now?"

That is where I find myself. As I have shared, symptoms have started coming back with a vengeance after I got the flu. It has flared up the Mast Cell and we're actively working to calm it down.

But today- today was scary. I had an episode that I prefer not to share in detail, but Steve was minutes from deciding if he had to take me to the ER. 

I am weak. My body is worn out.

And I'm seeking to keep my mind on Christ.

A little while ago I was trying to fold laundry in an effort to do something but my arms became too weak. The question was brought to my mind,

"Jesus, what would you have me to do right now?"

And then I remembered my Bible reading for this morning. This morning I was reading in Joshua chapter 1 and 2.

In the very beginning of Joshua, the first 9 verses, Joshua is told not to be afraid repeatedly.

Verse 6, "Be strong and courageous"

Verse 7, "only be strong and very courageous"

Verse 9, "Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be frightened, and do not be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go."

In verse 8, God tells Joshua how to do this.

1. God's word should not depart from his mouth. We are to be speaking the truths of God- out loud. We see this elsewhere in scripture.

Psalm 19:14- Let the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be acceptable in your sight, O Lord, my Rock and my Redeemer.

2. He is to meditate on God's word. I learned something that Jim Elliot did from the biography of his life, Shadow of the Almighty. Elliot would make notes of his daily bible reading. I have started doing this myself. It helps me to retain what I've learned (as it did today when I needed) and to really think through the scripture.

3. He is to obey what he learns in studying God's word.

If I just do these things, God has given me plenty to do.

So today, I will speak out loud.

I will tell myself that God is my Mighty God 

(Psalm 24:8)

He is my Everlasting Father

(Isaiah 9:6)

I will wait for the Lord. He is my hope.

(Psalm 130:5-6)

It is Jesus who gives me all good things. 

(Romans 8:32)

I will obey what He has given me to do.

I will seek His face and wait on Him.

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