Good Bye Trauma, Hello Opportunities


I had nightmares all night last night. I would be fine, then I'd walk into my chiropractor's office and fall. My legs would just go. I couldn't control it. Steve would have to scoop me up and tell Emma to run out to the suburban and get my wheelchair.

These scene happened in real life more times than I can count.

We now have some information as to why that probably happened and it's connected to this.

Regardless, it was extremely traumatic and it's not something that I had thought about in a while.

Until yesterday.

I know what triggered it, too.

Yesterday, I met someone new. She's a sweet heart. We hit it off and we're talking when the inevitable question came:

"What made you guys move here?"

It's an innocent question. It's one I'm sure I've asked many times myself.

But I've found myself stumbling over the answer lately.

Because, quite frankly, I don't want to talk about it anymore.

When people see me today, this is the version they see:

and this.

And that is all to the glory of God!

And so, yesterday, I told my story.

And had nightmares last night.

Imagine the most traumatic thing you've ever been through. Then imagine that people want to keep hearing about it and so, you keep retelling it. You feel your body tense up as you relay this horrific thing that you came through.

I can't do that anymore.

I have decided to write out my answer when someone asks me the dreaded question:

"What made you move here?"

I have some health issues and the air quality is much better for me here than much of Tennessee.

And if they continue to ask pressing questions, I will be honest that I don't really want to talk about it but I've documented all of it if they want to read my story.

So, if you've not read everything, it is all here. I shared what it was like when we were fighting for my life, God's faithfulness in the midst of it, trauma and ketamine therapy, what I walk like (when I can) with mold,


treatment to save my life at Envita Medical Center.

You can follow any of the above links, or you can go to my home page at 

and scroll down and read.

I am moving forward. I'm thinking on the good. And I'm thankful that God is healing my body. He has given me a hope and a future and it is completely by His grace.

I read a great quote by Seth Godin the other day and I wrote it down in my journal:

"The new ritual... before bed, is the check the incoming... check slack and email and make sure there are no loose ends... then the ritual continues, first thing in the morning as we check the overnight, to make sure everything is still ok.

What if, instead, just for a week, the last thing we did was make a list of excited opportunities for the future? And if the first thing after waking up was doing some morning pages and jotting down what we're looking forward to?"

Now, obviously, this is written for a business person. I loved the idea, however, and I have taken it as my own.

So this morning, I want to tell you some of the future things that I am excited about:

1.Drawing and painting for myself and the glory of God.

2. Riding my bike with the boys at parks and on trails.

3. Adding in new supplements and foods.

4. Walking the dogs in the sun today.

5. Continuing to add in new things to relax my nervous system.

6. Having a home. (God may be providing an opportunity for us to have a home.)

7. Gardening again.

8. Playing the flute again. (I want to learn to read music and play the flute again to help repair damage in my brain and neural pathways.)

9. Learning about herbs and adding them into my daily routine.

10. White water rafting with my dad. I haven't done this since 2013 and I can't wait to do it again!

Romans 12:12- Rejoice in hope, be patient in tribulation, be constant in prayer..

In Christ,


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