Mold Exposure, Setback & Moving Forward

It has been 2 weeks since our trip home led us to realize that we were probably living in yet another home with mold. This explained a lot about why I deteriorated so seriously in this house and why, no matter what my functional doctor did, I only continued to decline. While home, I started having the shocking sensation in my brain that I haven't had since leaving and, within 12 hours, my legs went. 

Even though I started walking within 2 hours of leaving my home, other symptoms that I have dealt with in the past couple of years came back over the next week. I had a blood sugar dive and my adrenals tanked. With this came a lot of emotions. Last week, I poured my heart out about my struggle with ptsd. I left it in the hands of the Lord. If He wanted me to get another ketamine infusion, I asked that He would give us clarity on that and provide for it (we came home with no money- Steve is working hard to rebuild our finances). If He did not, than I asked that He would show us what we should do.

I can only credit the past week to the Lord. I have improved by leaps and bounds. The ptsd feels almost non existent. My energy has been better than it probably ever has. I started feeling a tremendous joy. In fact, I think I started feeling like I used to feel. I had forgotten what that was like.

Last Sunday I drove for the first time in over a year. It was amazing!

I started singing again. While my health has been serious for 3.5 years, I have had health problems for my entire adult life. I think one of the last solos I sang was when Emma was a newborn. She's about to turn 17.

I had my first pilates workout in over a year. It was only 6 minutes long but, I'll take it! My arms are a little sore today. It's a good feeling.

I have been adding new foods with little fear (this has been a HUGE barrier for me). I am cooking, cleaning, and homeschooling my kids. 
All glory truly goes to God. I am absolutely blown away.

I was able to start my cooking club back up on Facebook. I am sharing tips and, Lord willing, will start to share recipes again.

I do feel like I've over done it a little this week. The excitement swept me away. I will take it easy for a few days and give my body some time to recover but overall, I am in total awe.

I was on the phone with my mom the other day. While most people get to enjoy pretty good health while they're young, I started struggling at about 19-20. I have been fighting for my health ever since. This year I turn 38 years old and I feel like, for the first time, I am getting to know what it feels like to feel happy, healthy and strong.

Regardless of what happens in the future, I know God is in control. He has been so good to me, so faithful to me. He has led me step by step.

Psalm 71:3- Be to me a rock of refuge, to which I may continually come; You have given the command to save me, for You are my rock and my fortress.

God has been my rock of refuge. He has been my fortress. He still is. 
God is so, so good.

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